{"id":9,"date":"2017-10-19T16:45:56","date_gmt":"2017-10-19T16:45:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shadow.bz\/?p=9"},"modified":"2017-10-21T05:46:34","modified_gmt":"2017-10-21T05:46:34","slug":"am-i-anything","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/?p=9","title":{"rendered":"Am I Anything?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This girl is on fire.<\/p>\n<p>Well it feels like there is a nausea inducing electrical current going through my veins at any rate. Is it the continual low quality sleep, the daughter drama? Is it like a volcano and I am simply due for a &#8216;big one&#8217;?<\/p>\n<p>How do people in war torn and third world countries do it, or people facing a terminal illness? My life is a dream compared to theirs and yet I feel like crying out in despair and throwing up from the constant state of anxiety.<\/p>\n<p>Is it the chemicals in my brain making me feel this way? Is it those imbalances that can possibly make me feel like this without having such a horrific life? Am I pathetic and weak for having these feelings and allowing them to fill me up?<\/p>\n<p>Am I anything?<\/p>\n<p>Everything around me right now feels so unreal like I am just sitting here in an immersive yet fake and scripted show.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This girl is on fire. Well it feels like there is a nausea inducing electrical current going through my veins at any rate. Is it the continual low quality sleep, the daughter drama? Is it like a volcano and I am simply due for a &#8216;big one&#8217;? How do people in war torn and third [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9\/revisions\/10"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}