{"id":24,"date":"2020-09-08T16:04:59","date_gmt":"2020-09-08T16:04:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shadow.bz\/?p=24"},"modified":"2020-09-08T16:04:59","modified_gmt":"2020-09-08T16:04:59","slug":"depersonalization-derealization","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/?p=24","title":{"rendered":"Depersonalization\/Derealization"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>So aside from being bipolar I also have bouts of depersonalization or derealization. Today I am having a case of derealization where nothing around me feels real. It is making me feel confused and anxious even though outwardly to my coworkers I am displaying a chipper attitude today. It&#8217;s like acting out a character for a play. Although I am having a hard time making eye contact today because my eyes won&#8217;t stay still which is making me dizzy.<\/p>\n<p>The question &#8216;where am I?&#8217; keeps jumping into my mind because it is almost like the world around me is a stage and everything is a fa\u00e7ade for some invisible audience.<\/p>\n<p>I hate this.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>So aside from being bipolar I also have bouts of depersonalization or derealization. Today I am having a case of derealization where nothing around me feels real. It is making me feel confused and anxious even though outwardly to my coworkers I am displaying a chipper attitude today. It&#8217;s like acting out a character for [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24\/revisions\/25"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/shadow.bz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}