My stomach is in knots again. This time because my daughter threatened to kill herself and I called an ambulance. I am hopeful they will keep her at least 72 hours.<\/p>\n
I am going back into counselling because these feelings over the past while have been related to her life choices and I had to make a choice. Mine and my son’s mental and physical health or hers. Not an easy choice.<\/p>\n
I told her she couldn’t live at home anymore so she threatened suicide. She had been living with a boyfriend at one point and then on her own but got evicted because of her life choices. So she was home again but out drinking and doing drugs and recently started selling. I can’t have that lifestyle in my home. She has mental health issues and has needed help for a long time but has refused to get any.<\/p>\n
I feel as though she has been keeping us hostage with her emotional issues and using emotional blackmail. I am not saying she is a really bad person but this type of behaviour comes 2nd nature to her as well as using emotional manipulation. She may even not truly realize she is doing it. I don’t think she is totally ignorant of what she is doing but I don’t think she is being malevolent about it either.<\/p>\n
I don’t want her to hurt herself but I don’t want her hurting us either by traumatizing us with her behaviour. And that is how I am feeling. I already have PTSD, I can’t add more fuel to the fire.<\/p>\n
So here I am feeling my skin crawl again and hoping I made the right choice. She will not be allowed to come back. She won’t help herself if she does.<\/p>\n
She will simply burn us all down.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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